PaperDoll68

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Scars by PaperDoll68, literature

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Scars

Sitting on the outside looking in. It's like a movie that has no pause, rewind, or fast forward. Except this is no movie, it's your life. You're watching it fly out of control. You reach for the reigns to stop it, but there are none. There is no passenger on this ride to help you. You scream out, begging for help. Noone is there to help you. You build a mask and place it upon yourself. You make sure noone else can tell something is wrong. You lie to everyone and yourself. The nearest only see the tight mask upon you. You look out through the holes, knowing nothing is real now. Beginning to feel guilty you try to take it off. It

Chaos by PaperDoll68, literature

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Chaos

Chaos is abundant in all things her agile words tear through the calm. You find peaceful tranquility there in her arms yet away, you'd rather have to tear you arms off than be in her's again. Like a drug addict attempting to find their fix you search all corners for just a speck of what was. Melancholy lullabies whisper in your ear make you do things never imagined. The chaos brings you to the highest places and forces you to find your lowest lows. The never ending cycle flows through what should be your world. Only the rock, that is her, interrupts what should be perfect

Into His Eyes by PaperDoll68, literature

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Into His Eyes

You must look into his eyes. Deeply you will fall into your truth, these eyes never lie. Knowing is better than trying to turn away. Slowly your sins rise to the surface. Your soul speaks out to his. It begs for your sanity and safety. The city life drains you of your moral value. But fear not, for his eyes never lie. They will bring you back into reality. Again you can rise to the top, if you allow yourself. Read the sign he gives you, the sign to stop. His eyes never lie, and they beg you to stop. Stop your city behavior, and return to the natural life. See what you've been missing, because it misses you. See how far you've fa

Walls by PaperDoll68, literature

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Walls

I build these walls not completely for myself but to save you I distance myself because it makes things easier it makes the walls go up faster I want to build my own fort knox to keep you out just so i don't have to cry the emotions drain from me like a childs bottle slowly, ever so slowly, but out to the very last drop I don't do this just for myself i do this so the world is fair in my eyes for you hearts will be broken worlds will be shattered love will be lost but like everyone says there's a thousand fish in the sea i'll just have to be your one that got away

forgive me by PaperDoll68, literature

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forgive me

the pain the suffering the unknown being afraid being anxious not wanting to be unloved not wanting to be left in the cold chances consiquences fear will you still except me now that you know will you still want to hold me the same will i be cast out like a broken object i'm sorry for not saying anything i'm sorry for my nonpourposful lie please keep me from the cold forgive me

confusion of paths unknown by PaperDoll68, literature

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confusion of paths unknown

miles of distance only brings more wanting miles of distance only bring the dreams harder secrets, lies, illusions and allusions playing, games, and seriousness rides, walks, and drifting here, there, and between facts, fictions and cover-ups the honest truth is too hard covering up is much easier to not think makes the time spent much easier to make-believe makes it really not real the truth is out there please uncover it for me....

white knight by PaperDoll68, literature

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white knight

waiting next to you.. waiting for the next move.. holding on tightly to what sanity I sill have left.. watching you watch me crumble. letting you listen to a filtered version.. hearing myself scream asleep.. the want is so much the need is still there the past is an ever ravenous obstacle you hear their filtered versions you think your own opinions what is the real truth? to know nothing is real a desire so strong you can taste it a desire of unrequited amore twin flames dance in the eternal sky out of reach for now holding onto what sanity is left come white knight save me from this hollowed hole dug so deep yet so shallo

Your Eternal Secret by PaperDoll68, literature

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hopeless amore by PaperDoll68, literature

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hopeless amore

A world of darkness a small beam of light the child of the corner stares blankly into the moonlight a single tear glides down her cheek to meet with a finger of unrequited dreams her heart lays open for the world to see a black empty cavern of hopeless amore the cat and the mouse fight for their lives one always chasing the other the two never to really encounter each other one knows the truth while the other lays with another rendevous in the dark and cautions thrown to the wind both to succumb the inevitable anguish questioning ones self-worth laying with self-doubt playing with self-pity she lays at the beach watching th

just a grasp away by PaperDoll68, literature

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just a grasp away

i hold my hand out but it's never had the pleasure of another hand i hold my heart out but it's never had the warmth of another heart you take what you want and return nothing.. you ask for one thing and get a million i'm left with nothing more to give i'm told to move on how can i move with no limbs i'm told to love another how can i love without a heart too many pieces given out nothing given back to fill in the holes the bleeding never stops even after the wounds heal the scars still cause pain hiding in their secret spots to open them again would be like letting out a new born child of happiness a child of pleasure and

Your Eternal Secret by PaperDoll68, literature

white knight by PaperDoll68, literature

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white knight

confusion of paths unknown by PaperDoll68, literature

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confusion of paths unknown

forgive me by PaperDoll68, literature

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forgive me

Walls by PaperDoll68, literature

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Walls

Into His Eyes by PaperDoll68, literature

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Into His Eyes

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Walls by PaperDoll68, literature

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Mar 20
United States
Deviant for 19 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: Tampa Bay
deviantWEAR sizing preference: XL
Print preference: 3x5
Favourite genre of music: rock, alternative, new age, rockabilly... almost everything
Skin of choice: ...um.. mine?
Personal Quote: All you need is love and a gun

Favourite Movies

the labryinth

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

a lots..

Favourite Writers

Jessica Leigh Weiss/ Laurell Hamilton/ Jvstin Hulet

Favourite Gaming Platform

PS2

Tools of the Trade

Super Waitress Skills

Other Interests

reading, writing, music

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PaperDoll68

Dec 18, 2008

Holy Crap!

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It's been forever since I've updated my poor neglected DA. Things have changed a lot in the last 2 years(since my last journal.) I've gotten married and have started to settle down. ~Celestrial-Temptress (https://www.deviantart.com/celestrial-temptress) has moved in w/ us w/ her gorgeous 8 month old son. I just recently got into Gaia online. I actually like it a lot. There are many many talented people on there. And hey.. it's something to pass the time while I'm @ work. I think, after I've posted the things I like from here onto Gaia, I'll start to write more. I miss doing it. And I can't draw worth a damn so we're not even going to begin to talk about me doing that. If you have a g

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PaperDoll68

Mar 20, 2006

Birthday

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ugh.. today is my birthday.. one of my best friends drove 10 1/2 hrs to see me (just one day she's stopping here on her way to maimi). she's napping right now... while i'm dying in my room. i'm uber sick... i was reading... and then i kinda got a headach.. when i stood up the world did that seconds long blackness and then got spinny. >_< and somehow i'm supposed to go out tonight and drink.. i may be dead soon.

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PaperDoll68

Feb 5, 2006

weeee

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soooo after i got all my banking shit taken care of... (some bastard sold my bank card info and bought $209.97 from shoesontheweb.com ) i have monies... and i decided to buy myself a whole years worth of DA :dance: i'm happy.... i really like having the bigger icons and stuffs....